Caterpillar: Myself Pre Gupta:
Self Compassion: This was a tricky one for me, since I never felt I deserved love or compassion.
Self Satisfaction: That had always sounded like being over full of myself compared with others, whereas I was trying to be like others, and to please them rather than just being myself.
Self Conceit: I didn’t aim to be conceited, or “big headed” and was used to being told I wasn’t good enough (which in my family meant being the best at everything.) So I never achieved enough to develop that conceit.
Self Complacency: As with the other categories, above, I couldn’t be complacent because there was always greener grass, more beauty, higher achievements somewhere else.
Self Image: We see ourselves in a mirror and think that is how others see us. Then we take a selfie and wonder who that is. Perhaps how others see us is nothing like what we think it may be, maybe it is better, or maybe not.
Butterfly: Myself Post Gupta:
Compassion: Once I started using the Compassion meditation I realised how being compassionate towards myself took away the pressure and enabled me to feel compassion without stress for myself and also for other people.
Image: I am not unduly concerned about how others see me. If they like who I am, that is a bonus, but I am not seeking others’ approval in any way. I'm just happy to be me.
Happy to be.
Having been forced to stop working aged 53 due to CFS, I was later diagnosed with Fibromyalgia as well. (With the added challenges of hypersensitivity to chemicals, smells, various foodstuffs, bright light, noise, etc.)
10 years later I found the Gupta Program and started my recovery. Wanting to pay back some small part of what I owe the Gupta Program I later volunteered to be a moderator in the Facebook Gupta Forum.